Then
Then, the day to day
All I could do was go
Away
Fear clouded memory
Duck and cover
Mind fucked like
A ravenous lover
Leaving me helpless
Weak
On the floor
A sobbing heap
My truth
Should be a lie
Just let me be free
The shape of fear
The shape of me
Hollowed eyes
Skeletal remains
Unknown depth of violence
The cage that kept me
Isn’t enough to protect me
The ones who are stronger
Yell louder
Throw harder
Stay away better
They mattered
I could be that
Away
I was tough
Away
I couldn’t be that at home
Among the ghosts
Of a catacomb
Never touched by sun
Taking out my rage on anyone
Except those who deserved it
That’s how it works, right?
Find the weak, the helpless, the slight
And let them have it
Reign down on the innocent
It’s easy
Empowering
It’s not you, it’s me
It’s my family
But you, brother
Where are you?
I thought we were in this together
I remind you of them
Of then
So you leave me
Alone
Standing in the middle
Of a battle field
We never asked for
Bodies cover the ground
And I recognize their faces
Fading and tragic
Lost in black magic
It’s almost over
The end of that circle
Only shadows for cover
Turned to dust
The cage of mine
Emancipated by rust
The makers will die
With tears in their eyes
Of guilt and regret
I won’t forget
Or walk the scar
Of that grievous history
I wished to be away
I can feel it now
As I drift out of the arc
Away from the dark
To the light
Of my own making
Changing the trajectory
Re-writing the story
Re-loving the testimony
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Thank you Christine ❤
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Lots of righteous anger!
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Phenomenal! DAMN!!!
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