My 9-year old daughter
is shaking,
unable to sleep.
Panic overtakes her.
I clasp her hands
and remind her
to focus on what’s real,
repeating
breathe
breathe
breathe.
It is hard to quell
a panic attack
by focusing on reality
when the reality is
she found out
why the flags are at half-mast.
But what if it happens here
what if
what if
what if?
I offer unassured assurances.
I breathe
breathe
breathe.
She knows
her uniformed, conservative school
on lock-down.
She knows
police swarming
her brother’s junior high.
Reports of guns
and danger
and crouching out of sight
and staying in the bathroom
if that’s where you are when the shooter comes
and dark paper on windows
and teachers who will
bar the door,
human shields.
My daughter suffers from anxiety
because she cannot
ignore
dismiss
accept
the world around her
and her mind reminds her
that the truth is scary.
It could happen
here
here
here.
It happens
here
here
here.
They need their guns
and they fly their flags proudly,
even if they have to be at half-mast
too often.
My hand would only cover my heart
at that flag
if there were a shooter coming
and I had to protect it
or her.
My child is not your collateral damage.
No more teacher-heroes.
No more kindergarten casualties.
I want my daughter to
breathe
breathe
breathe.
This moved me to tears. This is so gut-wrenching and the sad part about it and this is the inhuman society we are living and raising our kids in.
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Thank you for reading my words. ❤️
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My pleasure
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Yes, she’s hit the nail on the head with that one- I feel so badly for the kids in America- cannot imagine the grief of the parents who’ve lost a child- am inspired by the speech by teenager Emma Gonzales though- you can all make a difference if you march and protest and rebel together! Thank you for sharing this poem, love and peace from Australia xO G
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Thank you. I’m glad it touched you.
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Bravo, Kid The system is failing us, our children, and the world. We are the way to make it better. Love through all this darkness, Love fully and unconditionally as you do. Your kids, our Grandkids, and all their offspring deserve a world built on love. I love you.
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Thanks, Dad. Love you.
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Children’s fears are what remind us of how real these shooting at schools are affecting our lives, and, there’s nothing we can do, but just, keep on reassuring our children, that they’ll be okay, but we really don’t know that, we can only, hope and pray, that these things don’t keep on happening all around in our lives, but they just, keep on, occurring, over, over, and over again.
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That is the hardest part – we don’t really know. Thank you for reading.
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One of the most difficult things to deal with in my opinion. Explaining fear to those who should have no reason to feel it…and how heartbreaking it is, that they do. Much love and respect!
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Thank you, Eric. I appreciate your reading and commenting.
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